In my early twenties, my life seemed blocked; I no longer knew where I was going. This uncertainty led me into deep depression and for a long time it was almost like I had no feelings. I cannot remember laughing nor crying. Life was such a chore and what little hope I had was lost!
A pastor once said to me, "I cannot help you, but if you pray to Jesus he will." So I prayed to him: "Jesus, if you exist, please reveal yourself to me and help me."
I remember that I instantly felt loved. Big fears seemed to melt away and if I still had some fear it did not control me. I felt that Jesus had heard and answered my prayer. The greatest thing of all for me was that I knew He is alive!
One year after this experience I prayed that I would continue to follow Him all of my life and this led to more and more change. I received therapy in a Christian centre, and since then I don't drink nor smoke any more. Slowly I learned how to deal with problems in life and to take responsibility for my life. In these last years, I have continued to experience the Lord and His presence, and this is my greatest joy and hope.
All thanks, honour and worship to Him!
Oliver Neuwald, Germany